Motherhood Moments

After settling down in my new house, I asked my five years old son “how do you like this new home?”
“It is fine, but I like the earlier home better.” He replied. I could not stop asking him why and what is that you miss here. “Oh, there was a big park just in front of our home. I used to love that. I made several friends there.” And he started naming all his friends. “And I will miss my school” he said.
“You will go to a new school and will find new friends there, so don’t worry about friends.”I tried to console him. “But I will still miss my old home,” he was insisting. To make him comfortable, I started asking him further more things/ factors which he liked about the old home. “Garden in front, flowers, Kitchen garden, my old bicycle….. an endless list was there. I inquired “there must be something which you disliked there?” “I hated when you used to beat me, hit me in fit of anger and used to lock me inside the room…”
WHAT???
Oh my god!!! What a pain I have given to my little son ? Do I want him to grow up with these horrifying memories? How much mental and physical pain, he must have gone through that all those incidents are imprinted on his innocent psyche?
His innocent statement made me to rethink all my past actions. I am grateful to him, by saying so he gave me an opportunity to correct my self. Right at that moment only, I promised myself that what so ever happen, I will never hit my son.
To keep my promise, I am constantly checking my reaction and keep them in control. This led to a great learning for me, as I learnt how to re-route /re-channelize emotions and reactions. I learnt to modify my instant reaction to learnt behavior.
Thank you my little teacher!!!